Forgive me Father... For I am hurting

**In relation to my post on May 5, 2008**

" Please forget everything about me. Im really sorry. I have good reasons why im doing this. Please take care. Thank you so much for loving me. I love you. Goodbye... "


This was the content of his reply to my email.

I'm hurting, but just a little.

Forgive Me Father... For I am UNFAITHFUL

I know I am unfaithful. But what can I do. I find it so hard to not be one.

I was never like this before. Maybe, the past experiences that I had turned me into this.

Don't think I don't feel any guilt whenever I meet up with someone else or when I am exchanging messages with somebody else other than my partner. I do feel so much guilt! But what can I do. I enjoy the attention. I am just enjoying it.

I am bad! And I know it!
Shit! This is killing me!

Tell me what to do. What I must do?! Tell me!



Credits:
Picture (unfaithful lover by agenfae at deviantart.com)

Forgive Me Father... For I cried because of somebody else

I was so depressed last night. I know I shouldn't be, but I was. I was so sad and depressed that, being the masochist I am, I had to enhance the emotion with sad love songs.

This guy, who has been very nice and sweet to me for months had bid himself goodbye. He is leaving for the states and he doesn't know when he will be back.

I feel so down because I know I will miss him. I'll miss the way we talk and the way we text each night. I will miss everything about him/us.

Yes, it has come to an end. But I know I shouldn't be this sad. He is not my partner.

I don't want to say that he is just some guy I was talking to because we both felt there was more to it. But then again, I don't know how to describe what he is to me, so I guess, he is just some guy I was talking to. A guy who I got comfortable with talking.

Goodbye to you. Till we meet again.



**Last night, before he left, he told me that his song for me is this..